After a year long (and then some) hiatus, I’ve been hitting the gym just about every morning. I’ve been getting up early (as usual) but instead of lollygagging around on the internet sipping a strong “not for wimps” cup of coffee for an hour or more, I’ve been heading out to my cold, frost covered car and driving to Planet Fitness. Once there, I read the blogs I’ve saved in google reader and other miscellaneous stuff I’ve earmarked to read…on my Kindle 3 while pedaling or hoofing it on the treadmill. Killing two birds with one stone.
I suspect some insights and thoughts are a result of the endorphins that are circulating through my system. I’ve read there is a difference in the way the brain processes thoughts when you are exercising.
I’ve gotten so many ideas for blog posts, I’m pondering a new “at the gym” tag. We’ll see. No telling how long this early morning exercise resolution will hang on.
The idea for this post came, not from google reader or anything saved on my kindle, but from the Planet Fitness music blaring from their speakers. Usually an annoyance that fades to the background, these lyrics captured my attention.
“I’m still alive but I’m barely breathing”
“Just prayed to a god that I don’t believe in”
The song is called Breakeven from The Script. It is an ode to lost love. An “I’m dying here while you are out there living it up” song. The song emphasizes that he is “falling to pieces.”
It made me think about how often we turn to the god that we “don’t believe in” when our world is crashing down around us and we are “falling to pieces.”
Wasn’t is C.S. Lewis, no stranger to incredible pain when he lost his beloved wife, Joy, who penned the words
But pain insists upon being attended to. God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks in our conscience, but shouts in our pains: it is His megaphone to rouse a deaf world. --C.S. Lewis
And George MacDonald said this
As cold as everything looks in winter, the sun has not forsaken us. He has only drawn away for a little, for good reasons, one of which is that we may learn that we cannot do without him. --George MacDonald
And there is the oft repeated “no atheists in foxholes” quote.
I won’t get into the perpetual, seemingly unanswerable question of whether God merely allows or directly causes our suffering. I suspect it’s a bit of both and not strictly an either or thing. But he uses our distress as his megaphone to break thought our deafness. Many times when we have nowhere else to go, we turnj to the god that we don’t believe in….and find, to our utter amazement, that he is indeed there.
My “testimony” is a variation of that very theme.
I’m including a video of the song in this post. Videos come and go on You Tube, so it will inevitably become a dead link. I think it’s really interesting what they do with the photographs in the video.